A letter to Jose
It doesn't matter
i'm never asked to hang out anyways
I have cleveland and my heroin addict friends.
I'm not friends with the people in that house,
as I recall,
I was hardly friendly with them to begin with
accepting something doesn't require you to appreciate it.
I feel unsure of how to make my glasses not glare.
An asian man at the library has just spilled an open drink everywhere.
Oh, what is it? I don't have a license.
I have a year left,
I never even saw it.
You're tired of looking at porn.
Mcdonalds has turkey.
That is crazy.
I am poor.
I got my food stamps renewed
now this heroin addict I have been hanging out with won't have to buy me food anymore
this is ridiculous.
A full-blown crack addict/heroin junkie
what am I doing
just my ranting to you.
Thanks for listening, Jose Canseco.
Another Letter to Jose
What are you doing
i need fun
i need help
i want to dance but there will be a lot of shitheads out in clevo tonight
what is fun
i am going to eat biscuits
eat the pain
did brian wilson get fat
what should I do
stop hanging out with drug addicts
i promised him a bunch of weird stuff to give him hope and things to look forwardto
like “oh when you quit we can go on a date”
“yeah ill move to new york with you”
but like, he is gonna die
he won't give himself responsibility
he won't give himself a structured environment
he's too much of a little bitch
“oh I don't like it”
“too many rules”
I need school
thought of it
“give me your dope if you're really quitting” then selling it to pay my bills
or gas for driving out there
I dont think so
they stopped talking to me
they live in their own little world
it doesnt matter
why didn't anyone tell me
should I go out tonight
my birthday was two weeks ago
eat shit, jose
I haven't seen anyone
i'm not as important
eat another biscuit
You brushed your teeth
wanna go out tonight?
some hip band I dont know
im just gonna try to get some numbers maybe
ive already gone through the worst of them
oh I just got called into work
Short note for Jose
im eating chips
not even hungry
do you know what chips are for?
eating when sad
I work with matt today
gonna feel weird
Letter #5 to Jose Canseco
I want to start running and do a marathon
aren't I gay
you did 70-something push-ups today
3 pull-ups is your record
I can do one
you have to go to class
face your fears
be a twitchy mess
when you used to use a lot of amphetamine
you failed everything
and developed a tic
it was not a good look for you
you also didn't shower or brush your teeth
I was just beginning to blossom into an alcoholic
Last short note to Jose
I always eat and im always hungry
this is depression
you think I have a parasite